Tired of My Job!

Ok, I don't gripe often, but I just think that I have put up with rude people for way too long! Have you ever worked with someone that every time you see them you either want to turn around and walk out of your job or just tear your hair out? I have, this someone is driving me nuts. I really don't like to fight with people or even have confrontation with people, so I just keep to myself. I don't say what I think or how I feel and it eats at me and eats at me until I just want to explode. I am at that point right now. I don't know what to do, I have been desperately trying to find another job. I have even been applying at places I don't really even want to work at, but I just don't know what to do anymore. If anyone has suggestions on what to do, let me know. I could really use the help before I say something that will get me fired :D.

Crying All the Time

Ok, I don't know what to do, but lately I have been crying, A LOT! I don't know what it is, I don't understand it, but I definitely know that I have been crying, some for no reason, and I have just been crying at the drop of a hat watching TV, I was watching Scrubs and I was crying. Don't know why, but definitely crying. Sometimes it just feels good to get it all out. I'm not sad, but I just feel touched easily. At first, I thought it was because I was on my period, but apparently, that's not the reason. Who knows?

This is What Happens When You Can't Sleep!

Well, what to do when you can't sleep...blog! This is the most I think I've blogged, usually I'm lucky to sit down at least once a week. I don't know if anyone even reads this, I'm probably extremely boring, but oh well. I'm gonna do this anyway.

It's been a really straining week. We found out Tuesday that Zach is going to be losing his position at Lowe's and he's going to have to go back to working nights and weekends, and he won't be able to go back to school like he wanted. We also thought that we might have to sell our unfinished house and move back to St. Louis, which I would love to do, but I know we can't afford to. He was then going to move back to what he was doing when we first moved down, but that was a huge pay cut, which we couldn't afford to pay our house payment on. But he has decided to move to working nights and weekends, which means less time we get to spend together and putting a hold on his dream of going back to school. We are heading up to St. Louis this weekend, so we are going to be looking forward to a stress-free weekend. I can't wait to see my family and get a good free meal! I'm burnt out on my job and I was actually looking forward to getting out of here, but I know we are making the best decision for us at the moment.

I finally get a Monday off this week, I have been working Mondays the past couple weeks and not getting my whole week off, but you gotta love the overtime and the extra money! But I did realize this week that I'm looking forward to going back to school and getting the heck out of Medicap!

In Need of an Update

I just realized that I haven't updated my blog since Thanksgiving. With the holidays coming and going so quickly, I find myself getting into a rush and regret that I didn't slow down and enjoy the little things that make the holidays so special.
Christmas was spent with both Zach and my families. We spent Christmas Eve with his family and quickly rushed up to spend Christmas day in St. Louis with my family, only to have to rush back here for work Christmas night.
The new year rang in as quick as Christmas seemed to last. We spent New Year's day with Zach's family and headed home to spend the evening with Earl. I just wish that we had more time to spend with our families.
My birthday is the 10th, I turned 25. I guess I was expecting something great to happen, or expected to feel like a whole different person, but the day came and went with a bit of disappointment. I don't know what I was expecting to feel, but it seemed a bit of a let down. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed the day. I worked in the morning, we went to a wedding in the afternoon and Zach and I spent the evening together, I guess I was just expecting to feel "brand new". Don't ask me why, I couldn't tell ya! Haha....
This weekend is something to look forward to, though. We get to spend the entire weekend with my family, whom I am just getting closer to all over again. I feel extremely bleesed to have them in my life and wish that we hadn't lost so much time together, but everything is working itself out in its own special time.
I can't thank God enough for bringing these blessings upon me. He is doing great things in my life and I'm just now realizing the person that I can become...Look out world, I'm new and improved!!