Starting Out

I have been reading a friend's blog and thought this would be the perfect outlet to share some of my thoughts and feelings. I'm not very good at opening up personally to people, but I always felt comfortable putting my feeling down on paper. I just figured this would be the perfect way to do it. Lately I have been kind of down. My husband and I just completed our first year of marriage. It seemed to come and go so quickly. We are rounding out one year and one month and seem to be distant. It seems hard to find the words to comfort him and I know he needs to know I'm not going anywhere. We have so much fun together and I love him because he makes me the person that I want to be...Cliche I know, but it is the truth. I wouldn't want to be with anyone else and I'm certain that he's the one for me. But getting him to believe it sometimes is the hardest thing. I know he loves me and I know he knows I love him, but with my horrible communication skills, we lack that certainty. I wanted to get that out, because I have been feeling horrible, like all this is my fault. I know that can happen and that no marriage is perfect, but it is still hard when I know that I have trouble showing my feelings and speaking up. We are going to be fine, I'm sure of it. I have a hard time opening up and I'm not sure if I will ever be able to do so. That's the scary part, not being able to tell the person you love the most just exactly how you feel.