Getting My Teeth Pulled

Well, today I have to get my wisdom teeth pulled. I'm not looking forward to it. I had to take something to relax me before my appointment and now I have the hiccups and am getting very sleepy. I have been really nervous all week. I can't wait for it to be over. Zach says that it won't hurt, but I'm still very nervous. Right now the meds are kicking in and I'm starting to get sleepy. I hope that I don't feel anything during surgery. I know I'm not making very much sense, but it's making me feel better about having to get my wisdom teeth. I don't like going to the dentist. I'm sure it won't hurt getting them pulled but I know it's going to start hurting after all the pain medicine wears off. I'm not really looking forward to this evening! Oh well, I thought this might make me feel a little better! I'm just ready to get it over with!!!!

I'm MAD!

Ok,
So I don't know how many of you watch American Idol, but I have to vent about the wild card votes tonight, mainly just TATIANA!!!! There were about 12 other people in that room more deserving of a spot than her. Heck, even Nick Norman would have been a better pick than Tatiana. Ok, she can sing, only a very little bit. I think they brought her back because they needed a boost in their ratings...who knows, all I know is that I would have picked a million other people than that whiney brat anyday...
Ok, just needed to get that out! Anyone agree with me??

25 Randoms

Ok, I was reading a friend's blog and I thought it would be fun to do this 25 random things abut me, plus I'm just really bored! I won't be tagging anyone, because no one will probably be reading it, OH WELL!!




Ok, here we go!




1. I usually only blog at odd hours of the early morning! I couldn't tell you why, I guess when I can't sleep it is the best thing to do to make me tired.



2. I'm totally not a neat freak, but when I'm at work, I can't stand a messy area, everything has to be clean and straight and when one of my co-workers come over to the counter and move things, I have to move everything back in it's place, I should do that at home, but I can't make my self do it there!


3. I don't deserve to be with my husband, he's too great and I'm very lucky he even stuck with me.


4. I'm always late wherever I go. I'm late to work, to church (lately, I have been on time, wierd!) My husband and I always joke that "Waiting on a Woman" is secretly about me.


5. I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE shoes, I have recently downsized my shoe collection, which killed me, but I didn't have a big enough closet for all of them!


6. Sometimes I would rather just spend time with my dog than people, I just get so exhausted with other people sometimes! I totally feel bad saying that, too.


7. I have one good girlfriend, one. I have mostly guy friends. I wish I had more good girlfriends. I miss my best friend and wish we could see each other more often!


8. I really do have the best parents in the world! Even though we have had our fair share of problems, they would really do anything for me.


9.I have this extreme urge to be a mother. I don't know what it is, but I can't wait, I'm actually anxious about it!


10. I love Fall, it's my absolute favorite season. I love the rain and the cool weather and the Fall colors.


11. There is SO much I want to do to my house, but I just don't have enough money to make all of it happen!


12. I have a HUGE extended family. Both of my parents' parents have been divorced and remarried and my mom is remarried so I have my stepdad's family as well, plus I have my husband's family, so it's really, really big!


13. It may be weird, but I often long to spend time with my in-laws. I don't know if it has something to do with them being there when my parents weren't when we were planning our wedding, but I love spending time with them. I love going down to their house after church on Sundays.


14. At one point in my life I wanted to be an Olympic athlete. I was going to go to the Olymics in triathlon. I still would like to do that, but it's a little far-fetched now then it was when I was in high school.


15. I wear make up maybe once or twice a year, but I buy tons of it! I just don't ever want to take the time to put it on.


16. I could never, ever, ever live without music, I love to turn the radio up and sing along with the radio. If I can't sing along, I change the station or the track.



17. Right now, I'm watching Bret Michaels: Rock of Love Bus... I can't stand dating shows, but yet, I can't turn it off! UGH!



18. I am not and probably never will be a morning person. Zach has tried to change that, but I just don't think it's happening!


19. I love to go to church, it makes me happy for the rest of the day. I love Sundays, because I get to go to church.


20. Another thing I don't think I could live without would be my DVR, if I couldn't fastforward through commercials, I don't know what I would do!


21. I love where I live, I miss home sometimes, but I would much rather live in a small town than back where I'm from.


22. I love being married. Sometimes I just would rather be alone, but I would only last for about 20 minutes if I knew Zach was never coming back to me.


23. I love to workout, I just can't ever get myself to actually do it! It's crazy!


24. I can't stand when people drive SLOW! At least drive the speed limit, come on!


25. It was really hard for me to come up with 25 random things.


I don't know anyone, so I cna't tag anyone.

Tired of My Job!

Ok, I don't gripe often, but I just think that I have put up with rude people for way too long! Have you ever worked with someone that every time you see them you either want to turn around and walk out of your job or just tear your hair out? I have, this someone is driving me nuts. I really don't like to fight with people or even have confrontation with people, so I just keep to myself. I don't say what I think or how I feel and it eats at me and eats at me until I just want to explode. I am at that point right now. I don't know what to do, I have been desperately trying to find another job. I have even been applying at places I don't really even want to work at, but I just don't know what to do anymore. If anyone has suggestions on what to do, let me know. I could really use the help before I say something that will get me fired :D.

Crying All the Time

Ok, I don't know what to do, but lately I have been crying, A LOT! I don't know what it is, I don't understand it, but I definitely know that I have been crying, some for no reason, and I have just been crying at the drop of a hat watching TV, I was watching Scrubs and I was crying. Don't know why, but definitely crying. Sometimes it just feels good to get it all out. I'm not sad, but I just feel touched easily. At first, I thought it was because I was on my period, but apparently, that's not the reason. Who knows?

This is What Happens When You Can't Sleep!

Well, what to do when you can't sleep...blog! This is the most I think I've blogged, usually I'm lucky to sit down at least once a week. I don't know if anyone even reads this, I'm probably extremely boring, but oh well. I'm gonna do this anyway.

It's been a really straining week. We found out Tuesday that Zach is going to be losing his position at Lowe's and he's going to have to go back to working nights and weekends, and he won't be able to go back to school like he wanted. We also thought that we might have to sell our unfinished house and move back to St. Louis, which I would love to do, but I know we can't afford to. He was then going to move back to what he was doing when we first moved down, but that was a huge pay cut, which we couldn't afford to pay our house payment on. But he has decided to move to working nights and weekends, which means less time we get to spend together and putting a hold on his dream of going back to school. We are heading up to St. Louis this weekend, so we are going to be looking forward to a stress-free weekend. I can't wait to see my family and get a good free meal! I'm burnt out on my job and I was actually looking forward to getting out of here, but I know we are making the best decision for us at the moment.

I finally get a Monday off this week, I have been working Mondays the past couple weeks and not getting my whole week off, but you gotta love the overtime and the extra money! But I did realize this week that I'm looking forward to going back to school and getting the heck out of Medicap!

In Need of an Update

I just realized that I haven't updated my blog since Thanksgiving. With the holidays coming and going so quickly, I find myself getting into a rush and regret that I didn't slow down and enjoy the little things that make the holidays so special.
Christmas was spent with both Zach and my families. We spent Christmas Eve with his family and quickly rushed up to spend Christmas day in St. Louis with my family, only to have to rush back here for work Christmas night.
The new year rang in as quick as Christmas seemed to last. We spent New Year's day with Zach's family and headed home to spend the evening with Earl. I just wish that we had more time to spend with our families.
My birthday is the 10th, I turned 25. I guess I was expecting something great to happen, or expected to feel like a whole different person, but the day came and went with a bit of disappointment. I don't know what I was expecting to feel, but it seemed a bit of a let down. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed the day. I worked in the morning, we went to a wedding in the afternoon and Zach and I spent the evening together, I guess I was just expecting to feel "brand new". Don't ask me why, I couldn't tell ya! Haha....
This weekend is something to look forward to, though. We get to spend the entire weekend with my family, whom I am just getting closer to all over again. I feel extremely bleesed to have them in my life and wish that we hadn't lost so much time together, but everything is working itself out in its own special time.
I can't thank God enough for bringing these blessings upon me. He is doing great things in my life and I'm just now realizing the person that I can become...Look out world, I'm new and improved!!